Ambulances

They’ve just taken my dad away.
He’s been on morphine all week but it stopped working. I’ve never seen him this bad before. He looks so ill. They don’t know what’s wrong.
Update: He’s waiting for an xray and test results and is in a little less pain.
Update; 00;41 – He’s home still none the wiser but [...]

Bathed in My Size

There’s going to be a post on my past eating disordered life when I’m away. When I wrote it, I thought that I had this under some sort of control and I guess for the majority of the time it is under control. Yesterday a friend took me out for lunch before my shift and [...]

Brain Sparcity

A bit of a nothing post, I’ll try again tomorrow. I’ve not much to say this evening. Just got home with Tricky in my ears back from Mancunia.
I recommend watching Somers Town – which I saw in the Cornerhouse this evening…obviously? All this, of course, was after having S, from work, cook tea for me [...]

Hysteria

I should probably explain what went on last night before I go on about the subsequent bits, so bear with me.

Different Levels of the Devil’s Company

Thank you to Tricky for my title. I’m struggling with words as well as everything else.
My rat maze of a mind doesn’t feel up to posting anything special or mindblowing today, that said I’ve only ever managed to keep my head above the line of mediocre on here anyway. I’ve felt strangely sleepy today. I [...]

Trustworthy Ceramics

Trust is like a vase.. once it’s broken, though you can fix it, the vase will never be same again.

The Cheek

Writing this feeling really cheeky. I feel I’m becoming a little bit of nuisance on the “guest post for me please” front but I have an increasingly irrational fear of leaving my honest place to shrivel up. So this is a little reminder or push in the direction of emailing me…please?
I’ll post properly [...]

Shrinking Me

So, the psych appointment… wasn’t brilliant. I lasted 20 out of 50 the minutes before scrambling for the door and running home. Today was a bad day much like yesterday amidst a long, long line of disproportionately shitty days and I wasn’t in any state to hang around for questioning.

The Present of Past

Nothing much has happened today yet still my mood has plummeted further. I was meant to go shopping with my mum for Australia clothes. Clothes that would keep me cool while covering up my arms. Do they have such things? I remember all the posts on NSHN forums etc on how to cover up but [...]

A Faulty Wobble

Today’s been one of those days that I wish I could’ve skipped. As you’ve all probably seen, there’s been an ongoing battle with a certain someone with some rather naive/obscure(?) views. I know I shouldn’t of let it get to me, just like I shouldn’t of retaliated to his comments, but I did, and right [...]