Today has been one long barrage of concerned eyebrow furrowing and various amalgamations of “Are you okay?” But is it wrong to feel irritated rather than grateful for their apparent care?
Instead of consuming the college day contents (for regurgitation some time next January) my head’s been screaming at all these (stupid!) people (arseholes!) to STOP, SHUT UP etc with assorted accompaniments of abuse thrown in for good bad measure. I’m horrible. I really am, But all I’ve wanted today, is to be left alone, in my own little world, with my own little understanding – or lack thereof but at least my own despondency is easier to process than some idiot’s attempt at (very very very) amateur psychology.
On Monday, these guys from Biology – who always seem terribly interested in documenting my ups and downs, – laughingly told me not to go kill myself, which makes me ask the question, are these questions actually genuine or simply for a quick insight into the local freak show? If so, I’m not into quickies.
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I’m thinking in it for the freak show. And I’m thinking, next time get really really mad and yell at ‘em and maybe, if in Biology, wave a scalpel at them. And they won’t ask again.
Joking, I’m joking…
I don’t know if it’s necessarily wrong to feel ungrateful, but it definitely seems natural. I get homicidal too when people ask me things serious and caring-like.
Suzy x